random thoughts – Day 1,924 – (Monday) – and just like that

Some days feel like an abusive relationship and today was one of them. Some of last week’s last minute projects are still on the list and today delivered a couple more. They weren’t horrible projects and wouldn’t bother me so much ordinarily, but these are not ordinary times at the place of employment.

Even though the whole layoff thing has been knowledge for a few months, it has felt more like  an abstract concept. Today, when another late afternoon very important email arrived with very important details about the timing of our final payroll and deductions and accrued vacation time and other information, I started to feel a little bit shell-shocked from the reality that is suddenly pressing in. In another week, ready or not and just like that, it's going to be a whole new world. I'm feeling like I'm on the not ready side of the line.

After work, time was spent on a mindless and relaxing game on the phone that is one of the many games that seem to be based on Candy Crush with different images. More than an hour passed in the blink of an eye before I realized I hadn’t had any supper, but luckily I had Greek yogurt and frozen fruit on hand, which felt like a dessert treat.

After that it was mindless streaming of max with the new season of the series And Just Like That. I used to like Sex and the City, but the revival series just doesn’t seem to be as good or as clever and feels overacted. Or maybe it’s me. 

The show kept pausing and the audio would glitch out for a second or two every couple minutes. Annoying. Everything is annoying lately. There is no maybe involved, that is definitely me.