random thoughts – Day 1,800 – (Wednesday) – morning waiting

The wait for the call on Tuesday with the appointment time for today felt like forever. At 2:30, I finally learned the timeline. The surgery general prep sounded simple enough – nothing after midnight. Remove all piercings. Don't bring any valuables. Bring ID and insurance card. The hardest one was “wear loose, comfortable clothes.” 

Watching the clock and waiting.

I hate loose sleeves because they drag in food, don't fit into coat sleeves, and therefore, don't exist in my wardrobe. Loose exists for me primarily in the form of flowy summer dresses and this is definitely not summer. Even in summer, I need a sweater. I’m currently almost not chilly in a sleeveless base layer vest under a big tee shirt I was surprised I still have. The sleeve cut off the thermal shirt to accommodate the cast is on the uncasted arm. The shawl I usually wear in the drafty home office tops off the look. The stress is kicking in and adding a layer of warmth. Luckily, my coat sleeves are wide enough to accommodate the cast. 

Of all mornings, this is the one where I woke up parched and in need of a big glass of water. Coffee would also have been great, but nope, “nothing” means not a thing. Without the coffee, I’m dragging. I’d really like to just rewind life back to last Thursday and then not gone outside to address the flooded walk.

Now it’s just dealing with the weight of the wait for it to be time to go to the surgery center. It’s been added to the weight of the wait for news about the merger and who on our team might still have jobs. No wonder my shoulders are so tense. At least this wait is short-lived and the surgery festivities begin at 11:15.